Pain

It is much more secure to be fear than to be love. To fear, you have nothing to hope nor wish for, you will feel no disappointment nor hurt in later on. Some phrases from drama/movie say before that, to have love in life because life is beautiful...

To be able to put whole heartedly in a love without any doubt is a brave move as the ending might not be fairy tale moment after all. A song keep playing in my mind..

"To find the place I love the most,
  where the fields are green to see you once again,
  my love" - Westlife

Move on is what my mind tells me to do but my heart....

Wait

Are we emotional or rational human being? Decisions which made based on rationale that seems right but heart don't agree with the mind...

When you ask me to wait for you.. I am touched at that moment but also scare at the same time... Heart tells me wait.... My mind tells me do not put hope on it as it may hurt you.. I wanted to believe but ...

A new journey

Life is full of turning point... When you expect less, something unexpected will come on your way... When you expect more, for me, it is always not the happy result... There's lots of stuff going to come on my way and I know I just need to face it... Hope that I can overcome all of it and it just go smoothly...

A new journey

It has been tough.. I never knew my feeling would be so sad when the day actually come.. Stay strong is the only words I keep telling myself as there will be lots of things for me to face soon...

Moments...

To be together with you is some of the best moments in life... It has been 2 months plus since then...

I enjoy the time to be together with you, to be hold in your arms is the best moment ever. I never know that I can just spend time looking at you silently and yet doesn't feel boring. Some of the moments not to be forgotten are...

...your hands shake trembly and I know how important the day means to you...
...do you notice that my hands are a bit hurt because you hold little hard.. but I don't know why I can feel the future with you when you hold my hands tightly..since then you never hold me so tight, maybe...
...its round and just feels good to touch it.. =p

Lets not forget the bad moments too...I maybe over react that time... I don't know why as I usually stay calm... you did your best but I am hating myself that time..

you ask how I feel before...

...Remember the soup, hope it ain't taste bad .. luckily..
...I wanna be in your arms..
...hydrophobia? I hope you are in good health..
...the moments missing you, I mean what I say...

Did you ever feel it I wonder... I may not express it well as I am afraid.. afraid ...

Will time make me stay or runaway?

The great thing about life is it is the unique creation of each individual... Each steps that each individual take will draw each of us closer to what we want to achieve or farer.... It really depends on the things that each one is looking for...

The beginning chapter of career plays the most important role which decides the story of subsequent chapters... I am grateful that I am able to get a job that most of the grads aim for... A right job at a right place at a right time... but is this the subsequent chapters of life that I am looking for? Is this what I want?... @.@

Questions like these sometimes make me in doubt the steps that I have taken... Will time make me stay or runaway? I hope that someone will tell me instead of waiting for time to come...